Liberated
There are so many books and blogs that talk about how to achieve your life goals and happiness, things you should do to make the world a better place, you know the stuff.But me, I've decided to smash...
View ArticleThe Greatest Love Ever
I came across Schmutzie's controversial post, 17 Untruths Parents Believe About NonParents.She's a nonparent, I'm a nonparent. I don't have the same circumstances as Schmutzie, and I don't share all of...
View ArticleHappy Effects
TODAY I AM HAPPY.Whaaaaat?I'm happy my drug cocktail is working. I'm happy that it's a perfectly gorgeous June day.I'm happy I'm not passing out at 6:30 each night, because June is the best month.I'm...
View ArticleFreeway of Love
Imagine just the sight of a highway reducing you to a blubbery, sweaty, shaking mess. Every time you drive by one. Just seeing the cars rush by up on the overpass freaks you out, and you don't know...
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Ring!
This is my 45-year-old hand, wearing my favorite silver ring.I bought this ring at a parking lot market in Greenwich Village when I was about 23.The friend I was with just returned from a grad school...
View ArticleLook Back in Love Not in Anger
The thing is, though, I don't feel love when I look back to a year or so ago. I'm pissed off at losing a chunk of lifetime to a bad brain.I'm trying to move forward. It heartens me when I compare...
View ArticleO.K.!
When my parents asked me to accompany them to see Oklahoma on stage, I initially resisted. I'd seen local productions of it and I just couldn't deal with sitting through another surrey with the fringe...
View ArticleMy friend is dying and...
...and I'm angry.I'm not angry at the cancer that has been eating her insides for the past couple of years while she's tried chemo cocktail after cocktail to try to prolong her life. My anger right now...
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You'll be all right. I love you.
My friend Jeannette just died of cancer.I had stopped being angry at Jeannette and just wished her love and peace. I told her how amazing she was. I told her I loved her. I was able to hug and kiss her...
View ArticleI ate a donut today. No, I lied. I ate two donuts today.
Before my recent vacation, I gave myself permission to eat anything I wanted while I was away. I wanted to eat buffalo, elk, potatoes, pasta, beer. And, of course, I knew I'd be faced with road trip...
View ArticleI want to be successful with bipolar disorder.
I desperately want to be successful at something. At everything. I know realistically we can't succeed all of the time. But I crave approval along with that feeling of personal success. So I've been...
View Article#GivingTuesday
I didn't shop on Black Friday, and I bought just two gifts on Cyber Monday (and I really, really hate "cyber" - it's so early 2000's) but I'm considering participating in Giving Tuesday on December...
View ArticleHanukkah Princess
This shiksa is being treated as a Hanukkah Princess right here right now. Despite being together for a hundred years, or perhaps because we've been together for a hundred years, Salty D. always says he...
View ArticleThe Peevery: Buh-bye
Allow me to be sad and reflective for about five minutes.The group blog The Peevery, in which I participated for about 6 years, is shutting down. The blog was hilarious -- even Margaret Cho said so...
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Off the Book Shelf, Into the FIre
My house has a tiny room on the second floor with three walls of built-in bookcases. We use the book shelves for our aged CD collection, old VHS tapes that I don't know what to do with, my snow globe...
View ArticleOut of sight, out of mind
I'm having a pretty good run with that bipolar disorder. I haven't noticed it in a few weeks.In fact, the bipolar is so hidden now that a couple of times I forgot that I have it. It's a very freeing...
View ArticleStopping.
Every week now, I ask myself, why do I have this blog? A few years ago, this was a dynamic space with lots of interaction, and fun, with springboards to other fun places. But there's no sense...
View ArticleRole Models
I have to admit, I've been managing this bipolar disorder pretty well lately. Even with the cold long winter, I've only had a couple of bouts of depression and I've sprung back rather quickly. The...
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Bacon time! #smellthechange
25 days until the home opener.I've never been a big sports fan. I have nothing against sports, I think they're essential. To me, though, they're just another thing I selectively dabble in.Let's look...
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Dear God
I was raised not on religion but on Judy Blume books. "Are You There God? It's Me, Margaret" had a huge impact on the way I spoke to a singular deity.And then I went to church. I became a testifying,...
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